Today has been a trying day for me.
I have been eagerly awaiting all summer for the photo’s that the hospital took of Pixel. They would be bittersweet because it would be the last things we got of his. (We have already gotten the bills :/)
Next Friday would be three months since Pixel’s birth, and since I hadn’t heard anything from the hospital, I decided to call them today.
I called L&D who passed me off to someone else who put me on hold for 45 minutes. I don’t normally stay on hold that long, but I just put it on speakers and got lost on facebook until I realized I was still getting hold music.
So I hung up and called the Hospitals information line instead. The lady there answered the phone and was so nice. She had a stillbirth as well and knew how much those photos meant. She didn’t put me on hold unless she absolutely had to. She talked to a co-worker, her supervisor, and finally the supervisor of L&D. She passed me back off to the supervisor on L&D.
The supervisor basically told me that the lost their camera a few weeks ago, so she couldn’t look at it, but since the photos were taken almost three months ago, they should have already been processed. They couldn’t find any of them. The nurse who took the photos (Hubby took such great notes I know all of the details :P), called in sick tonight and wouldn’t be back until next week.
So basically, the hospital has lost the last photos ever taken of Pixel.
This is heartbreaking for me even though I have a lot of photos because we didn’t take a lot of photos after they cleaned him up and dressed him because we were told we would get the photos from them. (kicking myself right now).
I am hoping that we get better news next week when the supervisor is suppose to call me back, but I don’t want to get my hopes up in case it doesn’t work out.
I wish I was just holding my boy instead of dealing with his last photos. :*(
