Darrell & Sharyn

So I went in for the 7th Ultrasound yesterday. Surprisingly (or not) nothing really changed. Some of the smaller ones got a little bigger, but the bigger ones have remained the same since last monday. The nurse just told me that my follicles were there, but they weren’t growing. She couldn’t tell me what our next step was until she talked with Dr. Kaufmann and got the results from the bloodwork back. So I came home and went to work while waiting for the results.

I usually hear from the nurses before 5 so that if I have to order more medication, I can. So when I hadn’t heard from them by 5:30, my hopes started fading.

I finally got the call around 5:45 and it was my worst fears coming true: they were canceling my cycle. 🙁 They said I just wasn’t responding to the medication the way I should be. So,  I have to stop all meds and just wait for my period to start. If it doesn’t start in the next week, then I have to call back and get another med to induce the bleeding.

So next cycle they want to put me on Menopur. That is all fine and dandy, but as we have dropped $3k on this cycle alone, we don’t have the money for another cycle. We have to wait AT LEAST 4 months before we can go again. And there is nothing saying that Menopur will work then. The upside I guess is that we still have the one last vial.

So I now have to put on a brave face and drive bus all week for a bunch of children and then I am suppose to go to a friends daughters wedding to help out on Saturday. It will be a very long week and all I want to do is sit in a long bubble bath with a bottle of wine and a book.

So now Darrell and I look at our finances and see whether we will go on that cruise in April or not. I would rather not be able to go, but that isn’t in the cards right now.

INFERTILITY SUCKS ASS!!!

So the RE’s office called today and said that my bloodwork came back. Estrogen levels haven’t changed. So they are canceling the appointment on Friday and I have to go in on Monday instead while I still have to take 150 cc/day of the Follistim. So I have to buy another cartridge (that would be cartridge #4 if anyone is counting) and then I cross my fingers and hope that Monday is a good day.

This is starting to seem like the neverending cycle. I am currently on CD 17 with no end in sight for day of IUI.

Upside: I am getting a lot better at being able to have someone give me an injection.

Once again, I drove to Ft. Worth for an Ultrasound.

Once again, my follicles shrunk.

Once again, I have to do another Ultrasound in Ft. Worth on Friday.

Doesn’t that sound like fun?

They did blood work on Monday and today. Monday’s told them that my estrogen was upwards of 900 which is really good. The doctor basically said that it shows that the eggs are maturing, but we aren’t seeing the follicle growing. He estimates that sometime soon my follicles will just explode and there will be a whole lotta big ones 🙂 (hopefully no more than 5, please). We won’t get the blood work results from today until tomorrow since my appointment was around lunchtime (have to do it before 10AM to get results that day).

RE soothed my fears that we are out this cycle and that we will most likely fail. He said that he has had many patients on their first round of injectables whose cycle went crazy during stim time and then they ended up with wonderful follicles and a positive pregnancy test. I’m hoping that’s us.

With the fact that RE keeps upping my daily dose we have spent a lot more on this cycle than we were originally planning. We are hoping that the next ultrasound shows some wonderful follicles otherwise we might have to use some of our own money to pay for the last of the cycle as our HSA is getting low. 🙁

So fingers and toes are crossed. Belly is looking like a drug addict, and I am onto day 13 of my injections! (lucky me gets 2 tonight since there isn’t a full dose left in the old cartridge)

Once again — Think happy thoughts for Friday!